I hate that I find myself constantly checking my phone for anything from you :( I misses you like hell but you probably haven’t thought about me once :(
Girl if you only knew how many times he’s told me and countless other girls exactly what he’s telling you, you might realize your not as special as you think. Trust me I’ve been there done that
I want to fall asleep in your arms, I want to wake up and have you there to kiss me on the forehead, I want you there, if I have a nightmare, to hold me and tell me it’s just a dream. I want to kiss you, to show you that my feelings for you are as real as they get. I want to play video games together all night and never get bored… But this is just what I want.. there is no telling if there will be a future for us, as friends or as more, but I want this. I want to know what happiness is.
I hate myself!!! I’m so fat and ugly I can’t take it anymore! I would give anything to be one of the skinny pretty girls…
I feel locked, inside a glass box.
I see all these happy people surrounding me, living life. I see couples, holding hands and laughing at shared moments together.
As I sit in my box, I feel nothing but numbness. I don’t know happiness, or love. Nothing but the deadness inside. As I sit there I wonder if I’ll ever be able to know what it feels like.
I see you. In a sea of faces. I think that maybe, just maybe it might be my turn.
But I’m stuck. I’m stuck here in this glass, looking through, seeing you and wanting love and happiness. But I’m trapped. And it hurts. It hurts. Knowing you see me and I see you and knowing what will never be.
So now all I feel is numb and pain.
They go hand in hand.
I am one of those girls who smiles as tears are brimming in the corners of her eyes. Who makes others happy when she’s not even happy herself. Who would go through hell to prove that she could. Who has been pushed to the edge but refused to give up. Who knows she’s not the only one who has problems but would gladly put all hers aside to help with someone else’s. Who never feels like she is good enough for anything. Who tries and tries to please everyone around her and never succeeds 80% of the time. Who isn’t beautiful or skinny and wishes she could be. Who gets tired of fighting but keeps going because she’s afraid of losing everything.
Yeah… I’m that girl…
So close yet so far away…
That phrase. We hear it all the time and it usually doesn’t have any significance except for the current situation. But this phrase… It’s had more relevance in the last few months than it has ever before. I’m so close to having you but yet so far away from it too.
This phrase it’s been driving me crazy and I just don’t know what to do anymore..